After finishing the leftie shawl I was a bit overwhelmed with the idea of jumping into a new project, a new huge multi skein undertaking. For a few days I looked through my pattern library and through ravelry and all I had for sure was indecision.
I was a bit tired of working on size 2 needles. I did tinker with a design of my own but found every single swatch and stitch pattern I looked at to be wholly underwhelming.
Then I had the worst day ever. There was some bad news and I needed to start a knitting project. Now. When you get news that rocks you to the core, when bad things happen to good people, good people who are near and dear to my heart I turn to knitting to cope.
The rhythmic consistency of passing stitches from one needle to the next soothes me. It is mantra like as I repeat the stitch pattern down a row. ssk, k1, yo, k1, yo, k1, k2tog, k1; repeat. Somehow it makes the world make a little more sense. It doesn’t fix what is wrong, or unwrite bad news, but helps me align my brain back to center so I can go on and keep helping my loved one be strong.
I sat in the yarn store, talking with a group of ladies who have become like moms to me, exhausted to my core. Far too exhausted to cry I stared around at the yarn wanting to splurge and purchase new yarn despite my promise to work from my stash. I flipped through Ravelry on my ipad and saw the Gothic Lace Cowl again. I had been eyeing it up for a while but it never made it to the top of the list.
At closing, just before the owner was going to close the register and lock the doors we had a quick discussion about the yarn I was staring at- Ella Rae Lace Merino Chunky. I have been lusting after this yarn for a while without seriously considering it for a project. The company lists the yarn as a bulky, but we decided it could pass as aran and thus the decision was made. 2 skeins in bright red would become a gothic lace cowl.
I love this yarn. It is soft and plied well – it isn’t splitty at all. The stitches hold their definition well and lord it works up quickly on size 9 needles, this is in comparison to the leftie in fingering on size 2’s. I’m making progress quickly, because I’m also like an addict because it calms me. Just one more row. Just one more repeat. If I can finish this all will be right in the world again.
The ball band called for size 10 needles, but the pattern called for 8. I figured that a 9 was a decent compromise only .5mm difference above an 8 and below a 9.
One skein got me to around 13″ and the pattern for the cowl says to knit to 21″ so I’m more than halfway there. I’ll finish tonight and block tomorrow.
Most importantly, there is enough pattern to give me something to focus on. A mantra to repeat. And it helps.