In yoga today the teacher told us to let go.
“Just choose to let go of something you are holding on to and don’t need.” I need this kind of reminder, as I often get a tight grip on everything in my life. I even bent my metal knitting needles from holding them with a white knuckle death grip. No joke.
So with my head at my knees, dripping sweat and mentally begging for the next pose I ran through the list of things i should let go of. It was quite a list, and I finally settled on expectations.
I want to let go of my expectations for myself. Be ok with just being me instead of being upset I’m not a better me.
A few poses later with my ass high in the air while in downward dog, she asked us to invite something in.
I am trying to come out of a creative rut. So after passing on asking for peacefulness, playfulness and a few other generic things I struck gold with creativity and courage.
After class, after savasana, and finally eating breakfast my mind returned to creativity and courage.
I am a creative person. But I don’t show off, or sell most of the things that I make.Today I am seeing the wall in front of me. I have to be bold and have courage to break through the rut I’ve been in.
For me, without courage there will be no satisfying creativity.
I’ve focused on fiber art for the last few years. And maybe now I’m done with that. I can’t find the tiniest spark of interest in anything I’ve done int he past. And have NO desire to do production work of any kind. Making the same toy, scarf, pillow, whatever over and over and over again is the antithesis of creativity, for me at least.
There is good news though, I am starting to see a spark of interest in painting. I’ve never done oil painting before and now I’m captivated by it. I’m currently learning about the materials, and when my dick blick order arrives I will be embarking on a painting adventure.